see-saw

Have you ever tried riding a see-saw? Of course, every kid did try that one. The one in the playground that must have a partner and you would go up and down, and up and down. I remembered when I tried the see-saw. Although I know the one who'll try that must be happy, I had a weird feeling then. Instead of being excited and having fun, I felt scared. I thought I might fall or something, especially when I'm the one on top, and this made me scream and I would beg my playmate to bring me down, of course with the laughs,lol.

Then I remembered my childhood days. I was shy. I was really quiet. I don't talk that much. All I did was to study which made me a consistent honor student back then. I was brought to a school where my bestfriend was also my rival when it comes to academics. There were times when I would cry just because I lost my place of being the top student. I realized that when I was a kid, I already have this notion of success. But it was different. I started at the top (think of the see-saw thing). And it brought a bad effect on me. Just because I'm on top, I would make it to a point that I would be the one on top, until the end. This made me more serious in my studies, and my parents would sometimes get mad at me because I used to worry about a lot of things at school. I was afraid. I was afraid of failures. Just like when I was in the see-saw, I was on top, but I was afraid to fall down.

Until I reached 2nd year high school that I already lost my place of being the top student of our class, for some reasons I still didn't know. Many teachers would ask what happened to me. I really felt bad about it. Now, I am feeling down. I am already at the bottom. Maybe too much for the "top" stuff, and that now I am at the bottom. I didn't actually change my habits in studying, I still exert a lot of effort. Yes I have good grades to consider, but not like before. It's just that things do change. Things just happen. There will surely come a time when we are not always on top. We do face a lot of challenges. And I myself call this one a challenge. Although others may think this is just a normal thing for a student (and this was way way back several years ago, I just came to think of it again, lol) I am still thankful that God let this one happen. Imagine me being always on top, what if a problem happened and made me fall down? I think I would have a hard time with that. That's why I'm thankful that God gives me challenges. Challenges that help me learn how to handle different situations and teaches me to hold on to Him. Challenges that make me strong. And I also thank Him for giving me wonderful friends. The best friend/s, who teach/es me how to do this and do that. Without his advices, I would surely give up, me being a pessimist,nah. And in every situation, good or bad, I am thankful that I have my God whom I can call anytime.

And now, I am, once again, reaching my goals. Reaching for the top. Dreaming. Planning. Studying. Learning. Discovering. For me, if you want to have a good future, just think and imagine of a bright future ahead of you. It serves as your basis in reaching your dreams. And remember to have God as your guide in every decision.

Verse for this post: Isaiah 40:31 "but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not be faint."