I woke up late this morning. All I can remember was, I was dreaming, but the thing is, I can't remember my dream. I'm just disturbed with the fact that I woke up late just because of some nonsense dreams. Thanks to the missed calls from my bestfriend/alarm clock, lol. Though I still have enough time left, I wanted to arrive at school early. So, I just hurried.
I got to school just in time. I stayed at the lobby and I was talking to no one. I love silence (though the lobby was full of noisy students). As much as possible when I don't have to say anything, I just keep quiet. That's me. Well anyway, we started our French class and good thing the professor didn't call me for recitation because I wasn't really in the mood to recite, although I was listening attentively (because of confusing lessons), and then we had our Business Communication, and finally our Philippine Literature. I found myself listening quietly and patiently on these three subjects, but the thing is, I was really bored. I was so sleepy but thanks to God I handled the boredom. haha. It seems that the hours passed by quickly that we didn't even notice we were already dismissed. But hey, we can't just run and go home. We still have a meeting. We talked about who will be participating in the pageant (hooray I wasn't chosen). Then we had our committee meeting.
It was really hard then to call the attention of everyone because I'm not the leader type or whatsoever. I just kept on talking and talking, sharing with them the plans, and I know everyone was listening (maybe they already pity me that's why, haha) but still, I found myself in the middle of confusion (with all the noise and a feeling of shyness). I was not comfortable really with my position, with all those people listening to me. I was talking and it's like my mind was just saying "go on,just tell them your plans even if no one's listening", although it's not true, because I can see everyone staring at me. That's what I really hate, when people stare at me. Yes, of course that's a part of communication, but I find it uncomfortable. Even my bestfriend is used to my way of talking to him. We don't usually look at each other. haha. I feel really timid during our meetings. I just hope this will end already. I don't have the confidence, although my blockmates are really supportive and I can see their eagerness in doing the tasks I assigned to them. Anyway, I just pray for successful activities.
And last thing, I still don't know if I can join the tour. Some were saying our international tour is so expensive. In fact, I and my friends are just planning on our own tour in which we can have it in a cheaper price. But a part of me is also interested in joining the int'l tour because I am thinking about the efforts that I will be exerting. See, i became the head of a committee and I will not join. I find it useless. What about the tasks that we planned and executed? hmm. And they said, it's not about the money, it's about the EXPERIENCE. Alright. Fine then. Whatever happens, happens.
It is already 1:23 in the morning. Now, THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY! Weekend! Can't wait for long hours of sleep. :)
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